Nothing - helps me

For many times i've been saying that women are incapable of true friendship.
that's a crewed up on many levels thing to say.




here is the tuth: I'm incapable of frienship.

I am just too scared of being rejected.

Scared to not be good enough to be a friend.

Scared to disappoint by being myself.

Scared of somebody I learn to love turning their back on me.

Scared that the only reason they friend me is pitty.
the list goes on...



..so having nothing - helps me to deal with this fears, by avoiding them.


and see with men it's easy: even if they are disappointed in you, they wouldn't necessarily reject you. they also have pretty low expectation from you as a person to begin with.




I have not been drinking tonight. Still, I do feel like can say this.