"Letters to a Young Poet"

... have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language.
Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to LIVE the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself ecperiencing the answer, some distant day.
-Rainer Maria Rilke

and, girl, keep your head up!

sorry bOss :)

wheww...

hmm......... my little wishlist seems to be working already! I feel better!



with all respect to Van Gogh, I am a kind of glad I did't cut off my ear earlier.

back on track.again.

Clearing up my head

I want to be me.

I do not want doubt. Or misery. No lies.

I do not want to drown in people's egoism.

I want to move. I want to breathe. I want to love.

I want someone to share my highs and lows. I want someone to love.

I want the life to give me opportunities and ways of going through without hurting myself.


I need patience and consciousness always.


peace




PS:
And I'll be damned if I don't get what I want..
... and if I don't get what I want, then all of you will be..

=]

Aching

In times when pain surrounds
Music - what helps me breathe.

The sound stops the seizures.


..Sadly, music is not the remedy, but just a pain reliever.

I'm tired

I am just really, really tired.
And all I want to do is just sit and cry.

and I don't want to be strong.

i.am.tired.

MY friend

“What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world remains and is immortal.”


Like those goldfish, at least in this girl's world.

Werewolves

People are like monkeys - they are capable of learning fast and well. With or without intention.

They learn even faster if they want something.

I think it's sad that people become really good at something, and create a cult around themselves on that ground.
I just think about how pathetic it is that some people do learn the means to create an alter-ego to be admired.

And if you pinch, and take one of those werewolves out of their contagiously-dellusional world they become One Big Nothing.
Sad.
And it wouldn't be too bad, but it turns out those people loose their senses of humanship. Love, compashion, affection - all those things that REALLY count.





And i'm just scared to get to know people better. I'm tired of that.

Dear God,

...they say that I need to know exacetly what I want in life.


All I really want is just to be me.





well, I got what I wanted -- with endurance.

and Im not really sure anymore if thats the thing to want. because it sure doesn't make you all happy 'n shit.

I've got the heart, the courage. Maybe if I ask for some brains things will fall into place?


BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR, indeed.

Light BEARer

A Light Within For Those Without.

Civilized-less

If you genuinely didn't give a damn bout all that crap: fame, self-importance, popularity, so-called comfort, social pressure, then WHO WOULD YOU BE?

Think about how you react to your day, to people, the things around you, the feelings you draw.

I have decide that I’d be an emotional healer in my fantasy world. Basically, so I get to hang with ppl for hours pretending doing something imoprtant.
I would also be a warrior-protector. That is - so that I could be a bitch and justify it unselfishly.


Sight.

Illusions off: I am a bully-bum wannabe.

Hey :O)

Optimism

Always look on the brigther side!

Even if you are fighting with a tiger, while being chocked by a snake before the train runs you over.









PS:
And never, ever, ever, ever give up.

Confidence

I do not know tomorrow.

I do, however, know myself.

Strenth

it comes not from being strong.

but

from

feeling strong.

Solitude

Some people feel like they don't deserve love.
So they walk quietly into empty spaces.
And fill them up with longing.


it is through pain the beauty is born.


When your heart breaks... and starts to heal... the toughest job is to not let it grow back crooked.

The Worlds of Souls

Even The Sky Is Not The Limit..

'on the roll..

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things I notice

If had a lot of money. I'd get computer, programs and camera. And for now I'll just keep b.s.-ing on this blog, you lucky readers.
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