Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
One A Day
How the fuck do people do that?
How do they manage to do anything in moderation AND every day?
Anything I do is just like what everyone else does, but a little over, or totally under.
A little stronger coffee, a little much to drink, not enough sleep, etc..
How?! I want someone to teach me. I really, really just want to be like everyone else.
Get up rested.
Have cigarettes socially.
Socialize regularly.
Have a couple of drinks (two).
Or I want to live in some other world.
How do they manage to do anything in moderation AND every day?
Anything I do is just like what everyone else does, but a little over, or totally under.
A little stronger coffee, a little much to drink, not enough sleep, etc..
How?! I want someone to teach me. I really, really just want to be like everyone else.
Get up rested.
Have cigarettes socially.
Socialize regularly.
Have a couple of drinks (two).
Or I want to live in some other world.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Friday, August 8, 2008
Travels
Sometimes I wonder how many people "travel".
You know... like you'd just sit there. And on the outside, your body, your head, even your eyes look normal. And nobody would even guess what's going on within. What journeys to what worlds you take. How high and how misarable they could be. How scary and frightening. But it's not like you can run - you can't run out of yourself.
You - are the biggest world there is. You - is the begining and the end of the world. And there is no exit or escape.
I mean there is one.. but that's not really the exit. Maybe it's just a door to where the fuck knows.
Is that why some people become alcoholics and drug addicts? ..or... artists??
fuck. poor them.
You know... like you'd just sit there. And on the outside, your body, your head, even your eyes look normal. And nobody would even guess what's going on within. What journeys to what worlds you take. How high and how misarable they could be. How scary and frightening. But it's not like you can run - you can't run out of yourself.
You - are the biggest world there is. You - is the begining and the end of the world. And there is no exit or escape.
I mean there is one.. but that's not really the exit. Maybe it's just a door to where the fuck knows.
Is that why some people become alcoholics and drug addicts? ..or... artists??
fuck. poor them.
Dostoevsky:
"Power is given only to those who dare to lower themselves and pick it up. Only one thing matters, one thing; to be able to dare!"
Well, I dared ... alright. Now, I gotta figure out how to pick myself up.
Well, I dared ... alright. Now, I gotta figure out how to pick myself up.
