?

At what point does life becomes a maze full of lethaly deciving doors and crooked mirrors vs. an open field playground?




Is there anyone who could know you better then yourself, and what is good for you?

Dear God,

...they say that I need to know exacetly what I want in life.


All I really want is just to be me.





well, I got what I wanted -- with endurance.

and Im not really sure anymore if thats the thing to want. because it sure doesn't make you all happy 'n shit.

I've got the heart, the courage. Maybe if I ask for some brains things will fall into place?


BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR, indeed.

nerve wracking fears

I feel like the only reason I have fears in the relationships is because I refuse to lie and to pretend. The most people just live playing roles switching their personalities on and off, loosing themselves in lies and self-invented characters...

..to bad Bergman died... he'd totally get it.. =)

Weddings

why are they assumed to be happy?

Stupid celebration. Doesn't makes sense whatsoever.

Intimacy problems?

Why Americans are so sex-obsessed?
or
What's the big fucking deal?

Learning to die

I always questioned how honest were the people who, on their
death-bed said that they were ready to die.
o_O
I wass convinced that they say it because they have nothing better to say.
Or nothing better to do then to say that.

But I am learning to understand!

I want peace.
I want life. .. but in peace.

Is it possible?

So, maybe those people have come to realize that it's either/or situation.
And you get one or another.
First - one.
Then - another.

I want peace, I look for serenity, I get bull shit.
?

[a quote from short stories by J. Lachimova; "What is life? Baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me, no more..."]


)

When

will all this noncense stop bothering me?

Who

reached to you?

Why

expectation? The promise of happening, why the most that we ever have - a present moment, is not enough?

How

long is "not yet"?

What

is the differnce between boredom and peace?

A step

Internet makes me crazy. Period.

I am trying to figure out why.