Anxiety

Why is it so imporant to know that you are being understood. Or understood "right"?
It's like a circle, worry about your "coolness" or reputation, which sort of undermines the point.

It applies both to looks and to these stupid blogs.

Well, I don't think I am "cool" enough to actually be "cool". I can't worry what impression I make and how I am understood, and so forth.

I am tired to look like one of those Salvador Dali Abstracts with my long skinny legs. What for?
I'd be lying if I said (I stay in shape for myself). But why does it matter so much to me how I look or what others' perseption of me is.
why?